HeartsNeverBreak

For alcohol poisoning. Twas not fun. I still feel horrible and it happened last night. ): Plus the hospital refuses to give me my medical records.

And I couldn't be more miserable. Well, maybe I could, but...wow. This sucks. I have absolutely nobody here. I'm all alone. I just want to see him. I want to make friends but I don't know if I'll be able to. I miss my best friend--knowing that there's someone who I can hang out with every day and neither one of us will get tired of each other. Here I have no one to hang out with, ever. Most of all though, I just want to see him.

This summer has been the best time of my life.

I don't want it to end. I don't want to go back to Boston where I don't have any friends and probably will make zero friends.

I don't want to leave the boy I like. The boy that likes me back.

I do want to follow my dreams. But...I love these people and these times.

I'm going back to school but I don't want to. Ill be 9 hours away (by car) from all the people I love. I have one month left…and it terrifies me.

I might go to Otakon. I do want to go because anime conventions are still fun, even if I'm not that into anime anymore. But I mainly wanna go because the guy I like might. >.>

But if I do go, who should I cosplay? I'll have short pink/purple hair then. Like above the shoulders short, but not like boy short. I also have this really pretty blue lolita dress I wanna use in it. Or this gothic-y black dress. I just don't wanna buy anything.

He was suppose to fall for me. All of his friends kept repeating that I should meet him. We were suppose to get along great.

But no. I met him. He was hot. I liked him.

But he fell for my friend. Every single guy falls for her. I wish just one guy would hit on me instead but they all always hit on her.

And I feel like she instigates it, too. She kept calling shot gun so she could sit next to him. If I had called it, I wonder if he would have fallen for me, instead. But she didn't give me a chance.

Now they might go out. And I'm the literally third wheel, sitting in the back when I'm with them. I wish she would have given me a chance. She has about ten boys crazy over her but she goes for the one that i was suppose to get along with.

/jealousy.